I am really looking forward to this school year being over. I usually look forward to summer, duh, who doesn’t? But this year, I don’t have that feeling of melancholy that I usually get thinking of missing some of my favorite students.
This year, I guess it could be the grade level, or it could be the changes in the administration or it could be me, has been rough. I’ve never experienced the defiance from kids that I have this year. Kids usually don’t like being disciplined or corrected, but this year they have gone a step further and gotten angry and gone over the top when they are corrected. They run to whine to who ever in the building will hear them. And, the culture in the building has changed so that who ever hears their complaints actually encourages them to complain more and even make stuff up. I have had coworkers in the past who didn’t love me, and one a long time ago who tried to sabotage me, but this year the one coworker I am speaking of has been truly hateful.
It has seriously made me consider leaving. Walking away from the retirement and the friends I have in teaching, and doing something else. I don’t have that luxury, however, as debts and living expenses require my salary, and I don’t have any other marketable skills. I wish I could write well enough to have a marketable blog and make a living from that like pioneer woman or dooce….
Teaching is a wonderful thing, it can be fulfilling, enlightening, rewarding, exhausting and fun. It just isn’t any of those things right now. Except exhausting.
Well, this is a depressing post.
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